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I'm grateful for a 1/2 hour shoot that actually took 1/2 hour
I'm grateful to have been paid $60/hour for that shoot
I'm grateful to know I can survive perfectly well without Linda Flores in my life
I'm grateful for people who appreciate my sense of humor
I'm grateful I was able to get back to sleep after the garbage trucks this morning
I'm grateful my heat is paid for
I'm grateful for incentive and willingness to go out & do stuff
I'm grateful I can walk to the 7-11 for my Red Bull
I'm grateful for a beautiful neighborhood to walk through
I'm grateful to anybody who buys my products
I'm grateful you are reading this right now

I am grateful for a pleasant evening of music last night
I am grateful to have been able to sleep till nearly 8AM
I am grateful for free yoga videos online
I am grateful for the slightly sore muscles after doing yoga for the first time in weeks
I am grateful there is time to make a couple of pieces for at least one gallery this month
I am grateful to hear a rumor that I may begetting my deposit back on the trailer
I am grateful that I just this second noticed that ::HEX:: was unplugged & about to lose battery power
I am grateful for garlic fried & buffalo wings
I am grateful for a waiter who brings me free beer cuz we have the same name
I am grateful when people post events I'd like to attend where I can see them
I am grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful to all the veterans who were forced to fight and be injured and live with PTSD for the rest of their lives.
I am grateful to understand why many of my acquaintances on FB have me on "hide"
I am grateful for a killer heater and a house that retains heat
I am grateful for people who can champion a cause dispassionately
I am grateful to be going out with Lake tonite
I am grateful it is finally starting to look like My House
I am grateful for a do-over
I am grateful for the people who really try to understand me
I am grateful for internet TV & Brand New NCIS reruns
I am grateful to have gotten to the Other Side of whatever it was I was Letting go of last week
I am grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful for another really good night's sleep
I am grateful for a $20 tip last night
I am grateful for people who like seeing what I have to say
I am grateful for occasionally being able to walk away from an argument before it begins
I am grateful for NCIS reruns
I am grateful for internet TV in general
I am grateful to able to say, I'm great, thank you
I am grateful for interesting &/or entertaining stuff to do with interesting and entertaining people
I am grateful for doggies
I am grateful when I feel a strong sense of community
I am grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful to have gotten enough sleep
I am grateful this mysterious red blotch on my chest is fading
I am grateful for people who take the time to get to know me before giving me advice on how to be
I am grateful for good books
I am grateful to finally be putting my place together
I am grateful to be accepted exactly as I am
I am grateful for periods of social activity
I am grateful for periods of solitude & process
I am grateful for a paid gig in Sonoma this evening
I am grateful to be able to avoid having to drive on the Bay Bridge
I am grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful there was nothing I needed to get done today
I am grateful for energy class at the dojo
I am grateful for a couple of good RTs today
I am grateful that the G key WILL stop sticking. Someday.
I am grateful Annie managed to get herself on the train and into England
I am grateful the dogs were all good today
I am grateful for diphenhydramine sulfate
I am grateful pearls are becoming trendy again
I am grateful for mindless entertainment
I am grateful to be putting my place together, finally
I am rateful that You are reading this Right Now

I'm grateful for a nearby wireless signal
I'm grateful the dogs have calmed down
I'm grateful I am too full to eat all the cookies
I'm grateful for small amounts of tequila
I'm grateful for a small victory against Comcast
I'm grateful for people who thank me for the t00ds
I'm grateful for Rain-x
I'm grateful for getting paid what I am worth this weekend
I'm grateful for the eternal NCIS reruns
I'm grateful for pink
I'm grateful You are reading this Right Now

I'm grateful I have a well developed sense of humor
I'm grateful for floor space
I'm grateful this place stays warm mosta the time
I'm grateful for free food for the next few days
I'm grateful for interesting dogsitting jobs on Craigslist
I'm grateful for vaporizers
I'm grateful for people joining & sharing my knot-working page
I'm grateful for Attention
I'm grateful for the awning that Carl is making for my front door
I'm grateful for California
I'm grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful for feedback on my marketing questions
I am grateful to have entered the wrong date in my calender
I am grateful that the gig my calender suprised me with last night is actually for next week
I am grateful for a skin-care demo tonite with lots of free product
I am grateful for my GPS finding me gas @ 2.85/gallon
I am grateful for those who read through the entire thread before responding
I am grateful for Whitewolf
I am grateful for glorious weather this week
I am grateful for paid work
I am grateful for logistically comfortable work & living space
I am grateful you are reading this right now

I am grateful for four hours of uninterrupted sleep
I am grateful the road crew seems to be working in silence in front of the house today
I am grateful for Carl,the most generous cheap old man I know
I am grateful for Diana, the most Elegant Lady I know
I am grateful for lots of interesting paying work
I am grateful my debit card came home safe yesterday
I am grateful for the awareness of impermanence
I am grateful for a no pressure day of light sleep-deprivation
I am grateful for crab fried rice
I am grateful to be in a better mood than yesterday
I am grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful for hot oatmeal with maple surple
I am grateful for the sudden reappearance of my debit card. Any. Time. Now.
I am grateful for good insulation
I am grateful Carl is taking me to see Tiger Lilies tonite
I am grateful for the chance to see Diana and her many Escorts this evening
I am grateful for good conversation with people who Get It
I am grateful for Personal Invitations
I am grateful for the capacity to Let Go
I am grateful to know that letting go takes as long as it takes, uncomfortable as that is
I am grateful for puppies
I am grateful you are reading this right now

I am grateful for an absolutely stress-free day yesterday
I am grateful for a wonderful Halloween experience on D St last niht
I am grateful for double-paned insulated windows
I am grateful to have actual social plans today
I am grateful for leftover sushi (!) for breakfast
I am grateful for my fabulous red steampunk coat
I am grateful for an extra hour to get my 8 hours sleep in
I am grateful my sempai, Sasun, has essentially fixed my hip
I am grateful to have survived Two walks to town & back yesterday
I am grateful my BFF Whiskey will be visiting all week
I am grateful little Panda got a new chewto- I mean, little sister, Ella
I am grateful you are reading this Right Now

I am grateful I finally found the missing bag o'panties
I am grateful for many personal invitations to many social events this weekend
I am grateful for a clue
I am grateful that Accuweather.com is Wrong Again
I am grateful for creative solutions
I am grateful for lots of paying work in the very near future
I am grateful my house retains heat
I am grateful my BFF Whiskey is in town today
I am grateful I can walk to the dojo this morning
I am grateful for hot, strong,black coffee
I am grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful that yesterday was better than the day before
I am grateful I was able to keep the arguments benign and brief
I am grateful to have remembered today is garbage truck day & wore earplugs last night
I am grateful that the moving out is over
I am grateful to be aware of Saturn returns & that I am having one
I am grateful for lots of invitations to do stuff this weekend
I am grateful Trader Joes has hired guides to help find the stuff they keep moving
I am grateful for the information I need when I need it
I am grateful that even though Tribe sucks my friends there still talk to me
I am grateful for indoor plumbing
I am grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful for my electric blanket
I am grateful I woke up before the noise starts on the road crew
I am grateful to Janet, Annie, Carl & Guillian for helping me move
I am grateful for people who show me they care
I am grateful for French Bulldogs
I am grateful for a surrogate mom
I am grateful I finally told my landlord the truth about why I moved out even though it hurt like hell
I am grateful for "free" heat
I am grateful for internet TV
I am grateful to sometimes know when it is unsafe to continue
I am grateful you are reading this right now

Lashing out at those I love. Lashing out at those I am told love me, or why else would they be in this group. Angry, depressed, lonely, terrified and paralysed.Considering cutting my friends list down to 2. Wantin to attack the very people I get any support at all from because they are all ignoring me, or else I'm just imagining my heartfelt pleas for help
Why shouldn't I dump everybody but Janet, who is the only person on the planet who Makes it a Point to tell me I mean something in her world? Annie never logs in anyway, Juanita has Issues of her own to resolve before we can ever try to be the twins we were,Thea & Lake & LisaMArie aren't even on facebook or twitter or tribe.
I talked to me landlord John this morning. " You're really leaving because you're pissed off?" yes. Because YOUR SON told me they didn't think it important or necessary to talk to the existing long-term tenants to see how we felt about what they did. Because they can do whatever they want to to the property to put more money in their pockets. I told him the truth. Why I moved in and why I moved out. And I cried and cried
And then the messages from Twitter started coming in."What was that DM you sent me this morning""You sent me a loink to a virus this morning" "Why did you send me a virus'and when I went in and said IT WASN "T ME was told to Stop Yelling
And when I was puling into the parking lot at the supermarket a big truck started backing into me & I honked my horn and he started mouthing off at me for trying to keep him from backing into my car, excuse the hell out of me, so I couldn't even go inthe store and i came home and will have oatmeal for dinner because I am never leaving this room again for anything ever.

I'm grateful for FOUR good features on screen last night
I'm grateful to remember that depression is temporary
I'm grateful for the ones that stick around
I'm grateful for my dogies
I'm grateful for the loan of the red van for the dump run
I'm grateful to be as done cleaning as I am going to get
I'm grateful that somebody is looking at my pictures right now
I'm grateful that the headache will go away
I'm grateful that I get to wear costumes all the time
I'm grateful I got to take a whole month to move
i'm grateful You are reading this Right Now

I am grateful that Annie helped me with cleaning, chocolate & cable yesterday
I am grateful that anyone was kind enough to mention my network TV ebut last niht
I am grateful for supportive convo & viewing invite from Mark
I am grateful for giant plastic garbage bags
I am grateful for a possible weekend in Santa Cruz with one of my favorite dogs
I am grateful for the continued friendship of Lake Hanyu
I am grateful this house stays warm once it gets warm
I am grateful that my spells of social isolation are finite
I am grateful for the new Live Feed on FB, it really does work better for me
I am grateful when I remember that I made myself happy just because I wanted to
I am grateful to know that visualization Works
I am grateful you are reading this right now

I'm grateful I stayed home & had a really good nights sleep
I'm grateful for Janet's help sorting & schlepping today
I'm grateful I am able to slow down and relax after several loads
I'm grateful that somebody I care a great deal about is finally starting to realise something is Wrong
I'm grateful that unpacking is more fun than packing
I'm grateful for my stainless steel kitchen sink (where it's much safer to color my hair!)
I'm grateful my plumbin is getting taken care of tomorrow
I'm grateful for DVDs
I'm grateful for glorious Fal-Spr-Indian Summer weather
I'm grateful that the urgency is dissipating
I'm grateful I didn't stick my hand in the bucket with the Black Widow Spider in it
I'm grateful You are reading this Right Now

Janet came in the truck from Ukiah and we speed sorted everything that was left in the kitchen & livingroom & packed the rest of the closets and did a tiny amount of cleaning. Now to get all the garbae picked up & disposed of and a little bit of cleaning, since I know the bedroom carpet is trashed (note to self-get throw rug under bed NOW to protect the four inches of exposed carpet next to bed) & the bathroom floor needs reinforcing and considering the circumstances of the move & that basically I defaulted on my deposit long ago,I will wash & vacuum & sweep & mop but that's it. The windows need painting, the bedroom wall needs the rest of the old wallpaper stripped. So
I'm not doing the Deep Move-out cleansing, just making sure the dust & gunk are gone.
So here I am. Wondering what the Next Step is. And when. And where.
But I guess I better quit loafing around & get back over there & do a little of that there clean-up.